Where is Your God?

We have come to know and to believe in the love God has for us. God is love, and whoever remains in love remains in God and God in him. 1 John 4:16.
Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven. Matthew 6:10
Reflection
Most every day we pray the Our Father and each one of us knows that God is love. But, I've been asking myself, “If I pray that God’s will be done on earth as it is in heaven,” and I know that through His love he will remain in me and I will remain in him,” then why don’t I surrender completely?
Questions
What is holding me back? Do we, somehow, not want what we pray for? Are we not ready to accept God at his word and receive his promise? Why do we insist on getting our way when His perfect way is available to us?
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In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things came to be through him, and without him nothing came to be. What came to be through him was life, and this life was the light of the human race; the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it. John 1:1-5
By faith we understand that the universe was ordered by the word of God, so that what is visible came into being through the invisible. Hebrews 11:3
Ever since the creation of the world, his invisible attributes of eternal power and divinity have been able to be understood and perceived in what he has made. Romans 1:20
Further Reflection
Maybe we are slow to surrender because we don’t understand where we live. We claim we live in God’s creation, "Through whom all things are and through whom we exist." But, don’t we actually behave as if the universe were created purely through immutable scientific law—or worse—by Man himself?
Questions
Am I clear that I live in a supernatural universe, created by God? Do I truly accept that God made everything, including me, and He knows what He is doing? Do my actions reveal that I think I know better than God? By extension, do I implicitly behave as if the universe belongs to me--or exists to serve me?